2.26.2012

昨天夜里,躺在床上,想着下个周末,我就要离开这里了,离开这个我一直都不怎么喜欢的城市。初来这里,是五月,那几天天气格外的凉爽,我火急火燎的搬到一室一厅的公寓里,开始一个人住。闲时,翻翻文子给我的漫画书-一个人住第九年,或者,画一会儿画,就可以消磨一天的光阴。我似乎很享受一个人住的安静,甚至是孤独。不是说,孤独是一个人的狂欢吗。当然,有时还是会感到害怕,起初几天,睡觉前都要把家里所有的门窗检查一遍,夜里任何一点风吹草动我都会惊醒。不过,过了一阵子,我就又恢复到以往雷也打不醒的状态,每天都睡的没心没肺的。但是,夏天,那些可怕的虫子一直都在刺激我的神经,我也因此几乎一整个夏天都没敢在晚上开灯,除非,开了空调,窗子都关上了,我才重回光明世界。我一直都在抱怨这里的交通,这里的饮食,这里的天气,这里的一切。。。所以,当我要离开这里时,竟无丝毫不舍,而是觉得,大大的解脱。只是,除了离开这个城市,我还要离开我现在工作的公司。还有最后三个工作日,我就要告别我走上社会的第一份工作。无论是那些心浮气躁找不到方向的日子,还是那些忙得鸡飞狗跳摔电话发火的日子,或是那些无所事事终日寄情于小说游戏打发时间的日子,都将成为一段回忆。那段回忆里,还有一些人,有些我们坦诚相对,倾诉过梦想,相互依靠安慰过;有些我尊敬敬仰,无论是交谈或仅是擦肩而过,我都希望自己展现最好的一面;有些我打心底里瞧不起,可表面上还是礼貌相对;有些我们之间只不过是一些简单的交谈,相遇时互相投来微笑;有些朋友,似乎还可以走得更近一些,而我似乎总有拒人于千里之外的习惯,所以,也仅仅比点头之交稍熟悉一点罢了。我曾想象过,相隔两地之后,我与大部分人,都不会再有联系,我们彼此从对方的生活中消失,然后,随着时间的远去,最终变的不那么重要,或许,就像从来不曾相识过。我将在新的生活里,遇到新的朋友,一切,又都一样。

林中有两条路,我们永远只能走其中一条,然后怀念着另一条。

2.12.2012

Wow, it is already 2012 la, I forget to write my new year post here. Well, I know it will be a fantastic year. As it begins with good luck phone calls, and a wonderful journey in Yunnan. Yeah, a nice trip, back to the places I've been to 2 years ago. I really like these places, deeply inside.

I will go back to WH soon, finally. And a new life is shining in front of me. I can be with my family, be with my old friends, live in the city that I knew and grew up with.

And I will leave the company I worked for almost 4 years. Say goodbye to those friends, and maybe, most of them, we will never have the chance to meet again. And when time goes by, we will forget each other' s faces, names, the conversations that we had, or maybe, one day, suddenly we think of each other, all the memories rushed in. Then, some one else move in from far away, we move on, we always do so.

It's just good to have something to recall, to memorize, to escape...