I went through my previous entries, and wandered why I was sound more mature before. I felt a little bit upset and tired today. I knew that being in a new environment it's normal to feel helpless sometimes, it take times to be familiar with the process, the way people get their job done, and anything. I knew I was too strict to myself sometimes. But every time, when I think through what I've done, I always, always think that I can do better. I've being in this new position for 4 days. Although, I am still under training, and I do not take the lead responsibility yet, I already feel the pressure. Most of the testers here are younger than me, and they are doing well. I am new in this field, and every word here, is unfamiliar. I was overwhelmed by all the emails lying in my inbox. And I even questioned myself, whether I made the right choice, and what if it's not consist with my career plan. I want to be a professional project manager, and I am still very sure about it. But I go back to do testing, I know it won't be long, but still this area it's quiet limited. I need to find a point to breakthrough, maybe, after I get more information of this field, I will have a better understanding of my job, and be clear about what I need to do to be close to my goal.