B left, although we heard about things, but when he stood in front of us saying goodbye, I just realized that he really gonna left. I think he might be one of the reason that I am still stay in this company. I do not know what will happen later as the adjustment of the top management, but there must be changes, good or bad, coming soon. There might be chances, might be challenges, might be any possibility...

I am still remember the first day I entered this company, just as what I chatted with a friend via phone this afternoon, he said time flies since we graduated, everything just like happened yesterday. Maybe he is another reason why I felt a little bit sad today, for what we've discussed.
As a bigger brother, he experiences more than me, knows about life more than me, and seeing dreams faded, so, he knew that there are some things that we can not afford to lose. And yes, there must be things that I can not afford to lose.

I am planning for the trip to Italy, but I am asking why I have to go there lately, and stopped moving on. Parents are very supporting this time, they think that I already made up my mind, and get ready to go. But I am not. I do not know what I am expecting for, or waiting for, or just, it's a sudden over excited emotion and now I am over it... I don't know. But I know I will go there anyhow, just, it's not that easy as I expected.

It's not a dream, at least, not my dream...
I just shrinked back, treating this as a kind of comportment. So, please be brave be face up what you really want, deep inside you.