March the 3rd should be like any day of the any other days, but I memo that day for 2 years, for the dream which faded, for the possibilities that I might have, for what I might missed, for I lost my battle without even fight hard for it... I just can't let it go, but time can make so. I know it will be good for me to let it go, because it does not help me in any way but make me feel sad. I should let it go, I should forgive for things that happened in my life which make it looks sucks, or my misfortunes, or myself. I did try, things just do not turn out to be what I expect, but that do happen in everyone's life. And these things make who I am, they are part of me, everybody has their won stories, I should accept it and move on. I should let it go and move on. I cried when watch the movie "eat pray love", about forgiving yourself, forgiving the past. I found that I might force or push myself hard on finding the balance or make everything under my control, only in that way, I feel safe. Why can't we live the life with somw risk, take some adventures, so we might get some surprises.