Time flies, more than a half of this March went by. I was full of energy at the beginning of this month, ready to fight, part of the reason is that Susan Miller's forecast of this month is amazing, especially on career, which actually it's my biggest headache now. But seems it does not turn out to be as what she predict.

Although I knew that such prediction is kind of just for fun, non-scientific, still, it helps to give you some hope in a certain degree, and sometimes we do need something sounds good to turn us on. I applied several jobs on line, hoping that some might call to give me a chance for an interview, as I do not want to move all the way west to CQ, I've followed this department moving from one city to another three times already, I have the right to be hesitated this time.

I received a call from our V.P. this week, and he suggested that I can try to transfer back to WH to help him. I said yes, I want to, but I do not know how many obstacles lies in front of such a thing, as we are in such chaos now. Now the department is in War, after his leave, and "transfer to WH" probably is the last words the new boss wants to hear. And, deep inside me, I want to leave this company, this company is not all that bad, at least it's top 500, but I already see the limit, if I stay in this company for another 5 years or even longer, I would imagine what kind of life or career I will have, that's not what I want.

I do want to stay a little bit longer, as now, there are still space and chance to learn and grow, but unluckily, the adjustment of top management did cause some impact to the whole team and especially when we are in such difficult situation.

Any way, I need to stop worrying about the career thing, and be prepared for any chance that I may have, so I should keep on learning, improving myself, I am considering take a PMP certification and start to learn French again before I forget how to account in French, hah.

And for the journey that I planned for months, em, I applied again for the visa, and deeply hope I can get the visa. I was busy at preparing the application materials all last week, at work =p, so in a return, I had a really long and head-aching meeting right after I took half day off for the application, 6 hours, and we were arguing for at least 3 hours, that's the situation now we have, arguing the process, arguing the schedule, the arrangement, everything.

I told myself to complain less, the less the better, but it's hard to control myself not to lose temper. I know it's not good to complain too much, and it does not help to improve the situation at all, I really should try it harder, to control my mind, my mouth, my emotion. I should hold a right and optimism attitude, I really do, and I will ^^